Ever have one of those kinda nights where you just lay there and hope that voices in your head will just shut up for a while? Yep it was that kind of night.
I have no problem admitting that there is a continual conversation going on in my head. Sometimes its with other people, mostly its with myself. As long as I don't start arguing with myself, I don't see it as an issue.
I think what brought on the night of no sleep was a combination of a few things. Sam snores and for some reason the second that I start to fall asleep, she decides she needs to clean herself. She's very loud. So it's smack, smack, lick, lick, hack, repeat. Annoying.
Then I have this vision stuck in my head of a major ice storm. Ice piling up on the roof and the roof collapsing in. I know that is probably not going to happen. The roof is not going to cave in. Just probably leak alot if we get ice & snow piled up on. Roofers. Alot I could say, but I will just keep my mouth shut today. Except that I hope we see them sometime before the end of the world.
Another thing that I think prompted these little conversations in my head that wouldn't stop was my doctor. I know that I was supposed to go and see him Friday. But, I decided yesterday that I really didn't want to go. Just can't be bothered. So I called and left a message with his amazing pregnant nurse who will pop any minute now. She's at that stage in her pregnancy where she's getting a bit tired of it all and just wants the baby out. You know how it is, everything hurts, you can't get comfortable and visions of the alien movie keep playing in your head. Well maybe not the last part, that may be just me. anyway, she's a bit cranky and probably tired of having to drag out my 50 pound chart every couple of days.
The message went like this, Need refill on pain meds, just go ahead and schedule the surgery for January, let me know when to be there.
Apparently that just isn't going to fly, but I had to try :) Rhyming is such fun.
I got a call back in the afternoon from Cheery (not her real name of course) With a message from the doctor. You could just tell that Cheery was not happy relaying messages. That baby was probably kicking the crap out of her. I say that because every few words i could hear an 'ug'. She said, 'Doctor said you can come and talk to him Friday at 3pm about the surgery, keep taking the prilosec & add one more per day to that. I am calling in your refill. Click. Well alrighty then.
I do really like Cheery. I really understand how she feels. Its her 3rd child. The thrill that is the 3rd trimester is gone. She can't help being cranky.
So now I have to go Friday. I don't think that I will learn anything new. I have done my research. I know what to expect, possible complications, risks involved doing this much at once, yada yada. I still want him to take care of it. It may be that I can't have the surgery at the hospital here in town. They may not have the capabilities to handle something this complex. He had mentioned going to KU before to do it. I know it will be a very complicated 6-8 hour surgery, but I have faith that he knows what he is doing. ( I of course did a very thorough check on him too before I let him start poking around). So I guess I will find out tomorrow.
Personally I am ready now. He may want to talk about scars again. He said that if they had to take the gallbladder too that that would be either a separate incision or he could do one really big hideous one. Dude, I haven't worn a bikini since the summer before I got pregnant with Aden. I really don't think one more ugly scar is going to make a difference. Bill isn't with me because I am pretty. I've never been pretty, it just isn't in my genetic makeup. My genetic makeup makes good looking guys. I have no illusions of ever being pretty. I am good with that. Maybe I can get a tattoo over the scars. It would like like a giant anchor :) That would be cool, even if I live to be 80. I could tell the boys I have decided to be a pirate. They would buy that too. They think everyone that has a tattoo is a pirate. Which is kinda funny. We were in the grocery store a few months back and there was a biker shopping. Okay, maybe he wasn't a biker. But he was dressed in all leather, had a vest with patches, a bandanna and tons of visible tattoos, he was wearing long sleeves, it was cold. I am assuming he was a biker. There was also a very nice Harley parked out front. Anyway, when Evan saw him, he asked if he was a real pirate. The guy, who was really great about being bothered, said yes I am. Evan then had to ask where the pirate ship was. The guy said he couldn't bring it to the store today because there wasn't enough water so he left it at home, so he just rode his motorcycle. Then of course Evan wants to see it. The guy was great. Waved every time we passed him in the store. Wow, I really got off topic there.
Sorry back to the scar thing. Don't care. Simple as that. I don't plan on ever wearing a bikini again. Very few people will actually be able to see the scar, I don't care.
git-R-done
I really feel like just rambling on today. Okay so when I had the last surgery I checked out a lot of books to get me through. I am reading along and realize I am really missing something.
Apparently I missed more than a couple of books in the series. Reading R.A. Salvatore just the Drizzit books for now. So I get to the newest book which I think I am supposed to be on. and it starts talking about so and so (Catti-bri) being dead, and how much Drizzit loved and missed his wife. WTF! Huh. Last I knew Catti-bri was recovering from the leg injury. They weren't married, she was definitely alive. Not that anyone cares but it really through me for a loop. So after alot of looking I think I have figured out what books I missed, it was only three so I am waiting on those. I just hate it when that happens.
I like to find a series and read every book, all together. I thought I had done that with these, guess not. I really dislike when that happens.
Well the youngest of the maniacs has awoken so I guess its off to mommy land for me. Hopefully today will be productive with a minimum of yelling, screaming and fighting :)
Thursday, December 16, 2010
Wednesday, December 15, 2010
Oh just let me pack my bag!
http://www.nydailynews.com/news/world/2010/12/13/2010-12-13_ukraine_plans_to_open_chernobyl_site_of_massive_nuclear_disaster_open_to_tourist.html
Really? This apparently isn't a joke.
Not really sure if this qualifies as the ultimate family vacation. Will there be rides? Funnel Cakes? I bet if they just told people they had extra crispy Funnel cakes,people would flood the area.
I'll stay here and wait. I may have issues with my hair, but I would like to keep it .
Frozen Wednesday
The People at NOAA are calling for Freezing Drizzle today, yes, that's right drizzle not rain, because I guess mother nature is feeling a bit lazy today- everyone is entitled now and then,
I suppose I should be happy with drizzle and not rain, because they are calling for 'light' accumulations. Ice is not very nice. Very pretty, but not something I want to see until the roof is done.
Ah the roofers. Those mythical creatures who are somewhere in the magic forest waiting for a week of 40-50 degree clear weather. ROFL. We aren't going to be seeing them until May. I just hope the roof lasts that long. Ice is the reason we were trying to get the roof done before winter set in. I don't think the roof can stand another ice storm. I wonder if its too late to up the homeowners insurance just in case. Oh Please oh please let the forecasters be right this time and its not going to be a big ice storm.
Anyway, enough whining. Aden will not be getting on the bus this morning. He is not very happy. Having issues with times/schedules so we are probably going to change the times for his speech so that he can ride the bus, be we won't be doing that till after the Christmas break. Which for Aden starts next week. So like so many other things, we will deal with it next year.
Finally got everything squared away with the new babysitter. Or at least as squared away as we can get without an actual date. The date I should be able to find out Friday or Monday. I go back to the Dr. Friday.
No sure if I am just being impatient, which is probably the case, but I am having pain again in the upper left quadrant so I don't know if I am just still healing or if the pain is back from before. Bill says I should be patient, it was surgery, it may take a few weeks. Wanting to feel perfectly fine in less that two weeks is not reasonable. But I have no patience, well I have a very tiny amount but that is usually used up within the first 15 minutes of the boys being awake. So we will see what the doctor says. He will probably say the same thing as Bill. He seems to be a very reasonable person too.
Spoke with the new babysitter yesterday. I like her. It sounds like she comes from a very busy, full and it sounds like chaotic household so she should fit in just fine here. She has tons of experience with crazy, manic boys. I will never publish her name!!! It is so hard to find a good babysitter in this town, people won't share or even tell you. So I will be petty and not tell anyone her name ;)
The boys are excited to have her come over. All I had to say was that she was pretty. All the qualification they needed. They do like that she has pets, but mostly its the pretty thing. But then they really like girls, alot. It may become a problem in a few years. I just hope that they don't act like bill and start punching girls so they can 'kiss and make better'. In Bill's defense he only did that in grade school :)
Have the Christmas dinner menu nailed down, taking in mind everyone's various dietary restrictions. I posted it at the bottom. If they don't like it, they don't need to eat.
I suppose I should be happy with drizzle and not rain, because they are calling for 'light' accumulations. Ice is not very nice. Very pretty, but not something I want to see until the roof is done.
Ah the roofers. Those mythical creatures who are somewhere in the magic forest waiting for a week of 40-50 degree clear weather. ROFL. We aren't going to be seeing them until May. I just hope the roof lasts that long. Ice is the reason we were trying to get the roof done before winter set in. I don't think the roof can stand another ice storm. I wonder if its too late to up the homeowners insurance just in case. Oh Please oh please let the forecasters be right this time and its not going to be a big ice storm.
Anyway, enough whining. Aden will not be getting on the bus this morning. He is not very happy. Having issues with times/schedules so we are probably going to change the times for his speech so that he can ride the bus, be we won't be doing that till after the Christmas break. Which for Aden starts next week. So like so many other things, we will deal with it next year.
Finally got everything squared away with the new babysitter. Or at least as squared away as we can get without an actual date. The date I should be able to find out Friday or Monday. I go back to the Dr. Friday.
No sure if I am just being impatient, which is probably the case, but I am having pain again in the upper left quadrant so I don't know if I am just still healing or if the pain is back from before. Bill says I should be patient, it was surgery, it may take a few weeks. Wanting to feel perfectly fine in less that two weeks is not reasonable. But I have no patience, well I have a very tiny amount but that is usually used up within the first 15 minutes of the boys being awake. So we will see what the doctor says. He will probably say the same thing as Bill. He seems to be a very reasonable person too.
Spoke with the new babysitter yesterday. I like her. It sounds like she comes from a very busy, full and it sounds like chaotic household so she should fit in just fine here. She has tons of experience with crazy, manic boys. I will never publish her name!!! It is so hard to find a good babysitter in this town, people won't share or even tell you. So I will be petty and not tell anyone her name ;)
The boys are excited to have her come over. All I had to say was that she was pretty. All the qualification they needed. They do like that she has pets, but mostly its the pretty thing. But then they really like girls, alot. It may become a problem in a few years. I just hope that they don't act like bill and start punching girls so they can 'kiss and make better'. In Bill's defense he only did that in grade school :)
Have the Christmas dinner menu nailed down, taking in mind everyone's various dietary restrictions. I posted it at the bottom. If they don't like it, they don't need to eat.
Appetizers
Veggie tray w/Dip
Brie baked in bread
Crackers
Salads
Ambrosia
Spinach salad
Entrees
Baked Honey ham
Roasted Green Beans
Roasted sliced potatoes w/ Rosemary
Sweet Potato casserole
Jellied Cranberry
Rolls
Desserts
Kentucky Bourbon Chocolate Pecan Pie
Sugar free Chocolate mousse
Tuesday, December 14, 2010
DON'T FEED THE ANIMALS
We saw him again about 2:30 pm or so, laying right outside the kitchen window. We had a group of guys from the wildlife dept and the animal guy out front , waiting on a tranquilizer gun. The boys loved watching the deer. The dog was going crazy lol.
After about 1/2 an hour the deer got up and wandered across the alley.
I saw this morning that they will have to put the deer down, because it is a wild animal. Someone apparently at some point had tamed this deer and because of that, it will die. No one wants to kill the deer. Its really, really sad. I grew up in the country. Taking in strays and wild animals was pretty common place with kids then. I used to babysit a girl who's dad had rescued a raccoon after it's mother was hit by a car. It slept in her room and when it got to big, they let it outside and it lived in their yard. But they did that with alot of critters. Alot of people did. I had a friend at school that had a pet skunk (scent gland removed lol). But, these animals were taken in with the idea with they would remain pets. It's kind of hard to keep a deer as a pet unless you have alot of fenced in land.
I do understand the urge. I really truly do. I am notorious for taking in strays. I've never had a pet that wasn't a rescue. With the exception of Mama cat, she kind of just adopted us and kept dropping off kittens for us to take care of. That's another story. Anyway, that's how I have always gotten my pets. That's why at one point we had 8 cats. Now its just 3 cats and dog, who was also a rescue. But when you start feeding an animal, it becomes your responsibility. You are taking away the animal's ability to care for itself. There is a very good reason that you see signs that say "DON'T FEED THE ANIMALS". If you do, they start to rely on people for food. Most 'people food' isn't even healthy for people, why would you feed it to an animal?
It's just sad that this young buck will be put down by the humans he learned to trust.
There are tons of resources out there for wildlife. If you see an injured wild animal, call your local department of Wildlife. It is their job. It's always tempting , its hard not to help. But the best way to help is to call someone who is trained to help these animals.
It's just really sad. That deer, who we were calling Rudolf, made alot of people very happy yesterday, just by walking around.
Monday, December 13, 2010
okay then
Okay so feeling a bit more motivated, not much but it is getting better. So I am wearing the very controversial purple & pink sweater I got for Hanukkah, that everyone thought I hated because I was making a face when I got it. I was not making a face about the sweater, its cute, I was making a face at the size tag, apparently other people think I am smaller than I think I am. But it does fit, I just look like Dolly Parton in it and the horizontal stripes don't help that matter lol. I am sure Bill will like it. Its warm. I Like purple.
I think we will make peanut butter & oatmeal cookies today & wrap some presents.
I found a gift for Bill! actually 2. One is an architect design/plan book on Victorian houses written in 1880 the other is a mini camcorder that takes still pictures, can be used as a webcam & plays MP4 videos. Not that he watches videos or will care about that. but he did want a camcorder. I can use the handy dandy webcam feature and get my brother online! He hates typing but that's okay, I miss talking to him as I was before my webcam & mic decided to quit on me but they were not that reliable anyway so this is a good thing.
Still need to find Rich a present. Maybe I will make Bill do that.
Need to go get some laundry done and shopping list for Christmas eve & Christmas day dinners. Pretty sure what we are eating now.
I know I am not supposed to wish for snow until the roof is done (where oh where are the roofers?) but I want snow maybe a little blizzard like last year would be nice. I am not wishing for snow. I know that the roof in its present state would not benefit from snow sitting on it. The roofers will not appear unless we have a week of clear weather with temps in the 40's or 50's. Like that is actually going to happen anytime soon. What happened to "I was a roofer in Michigan, we did roofs all winter long"? its only 10 degrees- its not like its 45 below.
I imagine we will get snow & ice and we won't see them till April. But Bill isn't worry or concerned in the slightest. He said that it can take up to 4 weeks to replicate the corbels and that is probably what the hold up is. Whatever you say dear.
I love the train set the boys got. I hardly ever see them. I can hear them just fine. But the Isle of Sodor has them busy. It's not an actual Thomas the Train table and set but they have good imaginations.
There is a young whitetail deer running around the neighborhood. The animal control guy that is trying to catch it says its really tame and everyone has been petting it. But it won't come to him. We told the boys it was Rudolf.
Think I am offically done shopping for everyone. Well except for the boys. There are a couple little things I think we might get them.
Everyone else is just going to have to be happy with what they get. I would like a box of wine and about 6 pounds of chocolates - and not the cheap chocolate! Actually I would just like to get through this holiday with a minimum of screaming and fighting (not necessarily talking about the boys).
Now let's just hope all the good little sellers on Ebay get the stuff shipped out so it can get here in time!
I think we will make peanut butter & oatmeal cookies today & wrap some presents.
I found a gift for Bill! actually 2. One is an architect design/plan book on Victorian houses written in 1880 the other is a mini camcorder that takes still pictures, can be used as a webcam & plays MP4 videos. Not that he watches videos or will care about that. but he did want a camcorder. I can use the handy dandy webcam feature and get my brother online! He hates typing but that's okay, I miss talking to him as I was before my webcam & mic decided to quit on me but they were not that reliable anyway so this is a good thing.
Still need to find Rich a present. Maybe I will make Bill do that.
Need to go get some laundry done and shopping list for Christmas eve & Christmas day dinners. Pretty sure what we are eating now.
I know I am not supposed to wish for snow until the roof is done (where oh where are the roofers?) but I want snow maybe a little blizzard like last year would be nice. I am not wishing for snow. I know that the roof in its present state would not benefit from snow sitting on it. The roofers will not appear unless we have a week of clear weather with temps in the 40's or 50's. Like that is actually going to happen anytime soon. What happened to "I was a roofer in Michigan, we did roofs all winter long"? its only 10 degrees- its not like its 45 below.
I imagine we will get snow & ice and we won't see them till April. But Bill isn't worry or concerned in the slightest. He said that it can take up to 4 weeks to replicate the corbels and that is probably what the hold up is. Whatever you say dear.
I love the train set the boys got. I hardly ever see them. I can hear them just fine. But the Isle of Sodor has them busy. It's not an actual Thomas the Train table and set but they have good imaginations.
There is a young whitetail deer running around the neighborhood. The animal control guy that is trying to catch it says its really tame and everyone has been petting it. But it won't come to him. We told the boys it was Rudolf.
Think I am offically done shopping for everyone. Well except for the boys. There are a couple little things I think we might get them.
Everyone else is just going to have to be happy with what they get. I would like a box of wine and about 6 pounds of chocolates - and not the cheap chocolate! Actually I would just like to get through this holiday with a minimum of screaming and fighting (not necessarily talking about the boys).
Now let's just hope all the good little sellers on Ebay get the stuff shipped out so it can get here in time!
The Not so Merry Ol' Land of OZ
Starting Wednesday, Aden will start riding the bus. I am not sure how I feel about it, but he is excited. It is just getting too hard on Bill to get up and take him, especially on the weeks that he works 10 days straight. He gets home between 5:30am and 6 and then has to get up at 7:30 to get Aden to school in time. Its even worse now that he has to warm up the car and scrape the windshields. So Aden will ride the bus. He is so excited. I know that he would be riding the bus anyway next year but he's till my little baby!!! He shouldn't be riding on the bus yet.
I will get over it, eventually.
So I have been spending way too much time on Ebay trying to get last minute Christmas presents. Normally I am done shopping by August but this year just didn't do it. And then we weren't sure if we were even going to be doing Christmas this year, we didn't know if I would be in the hospital or not. But since it appears that I won't be, Christmas is on! Which means, I have to get more gifts because I took all of the presents marked Christmas to Fran & Rich's for Hanukkah.
And then there is Bill. He is so hard to shop for. I want to get him something special and meaningful, but I just can't seem to find whatever it is I am looking for. It would probably help if I knew what I wanted to get him but I don't.
I hate getting him movies. But I did. Fran & Jana are all taken care of. Rich is as always the most difficult person on the planet to buy for, he hates everything I get him, every year. So far this year I have gone with that an for Hanukkah he got really tacky gifts. Maybe I should stay with that theme.
Still can't get into the whole 'Spirit " of things. Even Christmas music isn't helping. Maybe I should try making cookies, that usually helps, but I would end up eating most of them.
Maybe it is that so much has changed for me. I loved getting out of the house with the boys and Sam a few times a day and walking all over town, going to the library, checking out the river, just walking. It's too cold right now to do that and I am not physically up to wrestling the dog. She is just way to strong for me to walk her right now and even though we were doing better with her walking training, I wasn't able to keep it up. She is alot more calm in the house when she gets a few miles in ever day. She is dealing though. We make sure she gets lots of practice finding things we hide for her. The boys however don't seem to realize that when they play hide & seek from her, she will always find them.
I am usually pretty peppy but my peppy seems to be on vacation. Perhaps a glass a wine, some Bing Crosby & a present wrapping session will perk me up. Who knows???
I still haven't figured out Christmas Dinner yet! Christmas Eve is easy just finger foods, a movie & 1 present each for the boys, then mommy & daddy will have quality time. This year though it won't be a marathon present wrapping and assembling session :)
Maybe for Christmas dinner I should just do a ham, that's easy. I don't think I want to mess with a turkey this year, even though I have two in the freezer. So maybe Ham, roasted asparagus, Ambrosia salad, chocolate pie, pumpkin pie, Sweet potatoes, Rolls, Green bean casserole. Or we could do a breakfast buffet thing for when everyone comes over. I have no idea but I better figure it out quick.
I will get over it, eventually.
So I have been spending way too much time on Ebay trying to get last minute Christmas presents. Normally I am done shopping by August but this year just didn't do it. And then we weren't sure if we were even going to be doing Christmas this year, we didn't know if I would be in the hospital or not. But since it appears that I won't be, Christmas is on! Which means, I have to get more gifts because I took all of the presents marked Christmas to Fran & Rich's for Hanukkah.
And then there is Bill. He is so hard to shop for. I want to get him something special and meaningful, but I just can't seem to find whatever it is I am looking for. It would probably help if I knew what I wanted to get him but I don't.
I hate getting him movies. But I did. Fran & Jana are all taken care of. Rich is as always the most difficult person on the planet to buy for, he hates everything I get him, every year. So far this year I have gone with that an for Hanukkah he got really tacky gifts. Maybe I should stay with that theme.
Still can't get into the whole 'Spirit " of things. Even Christmas music isn't helping. Maybe I should try making cookies, that usually helps, but I would end up eating most of them.
Maybe it is that so much has changed for me. I loved getting out of the house with the boys and Sam a few times a day and walking all over town, going to the library, checking out the river, just walking. It's too cold right now to do that and I am not physically up to wrestling the dog. She is just way to strong for me to walk her right now and even though we were doing better with her walking training, I wasn't able to keep it up. She is alot more calm in the house when she gets a few miles in ever day. She is dealing though. We make sure she gets lots of practice finding things we hide for her. The boys however don't seem to realize that when they play hide & seek from her, she will always find them.
I am usually pretty peppy but my peppy seems to be on vacation. Perhaps a glass a wine, some Bing Crosby & a present wrapping session will perk me up. Who knows???
I still haven't figured out Christmas Dinner yet! Christmas Eve is easy just finger foods, a movie & 1 present each for the boys, then mommy & daddy will have quality time. This year though it won't be a marathon present wrapping and assembling session :)
Maybe for Christmas dinner I should just do a ham, that's easy. I don't think I want to mess with a turkey this year, even though I have two in the freezer. So maybe Ham, roasted asparagus, Ambrosia salad, chocolate pie, pumpkin pie, Sweet potatoes, Rolls, Green bean casserole. Or we could do a breakfast buffet thing for when everyone comes over. I have no idea but I better figure it out quick.
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